College Elective Courses

I am sitting in psychology 101.
I took this elective because I thought that it would be interesting.
It is not.
However, this is not the information's fault, it is the professor's.
Apparently a 100 level course at a university should be the equivalent of that at a middle school.

I have realized that I hate intro-courses, which is what my electives primarily consist of.
I would rather take a 300/400 level political science or history class any day.

Unfortunately, I am taking my last two of those classes this semester.
That means that my next to semesters will be filled with these pointless electives
Rather than allowing me to continue taking political science and history classes, I have to make myself a "well-rounded individual" by studying other subjects.
I thought that was the point of my core classes, which I have also already completed.

So, rather than furthering my studies in history and political science, which would make just a tiny bit of sense, I will be taking 30 hours of electives my senior year.
30 hours.


So, it would make sense to add another major or minor, right?
Apparently not, because Charleston Southern University's process in adding majors/minors is insanely ridiculous.

I am a tiny bit frustrated.

Airport adventure

At 5:15 this morning, as I was waiting to go through security at the airport, I realized that I didn't have my license.
I was a COMPLETE genius and didn't check before I left to make sure I had it. I had taken it out of my wallet yesterday at the CVS drive through, didn't put it back in, and left it in the seat of my car.
Apparently, I could have used my credit card for identification, but I did not learn this until after my mom was almost at the airport with the license.
My poor dad, who woke up at 4 a.m. to take me to the airport, was pacing the entire time.
I, SURPRISINGLY, stayed calm, even after I was still standing outside of security, without my license, after boarding for my flight began. That is unbelievable.
So, thank you to my mom who got to the airport just in time! I made the final boarding call and am sitting in Atlanta waiting for my flight to Chattanooga.

I thought that I would use this opportunity to blog, since I haven't in forever.
However, apparently this airport doesn't provide the courtesy of free Internet. So, I am writing this blog post on my phone, with my Verizon 3G Internet. I am not sure if this is normal, since I do not fly often, but I think it is ridiculous. Plane tickets cost a lot of money; the least they can do is provide Wi-Fi.
I'm actually not sure how people afford to fly over the holidays. A round-trip ticket from Charleston to Chattanooga, during the holiday season, costs $904.
I am extremely thankful for a family friend, who works for Delta, that helped me get a stand-by "buddy pass" ticket for almost just a tenth of that price. Otherwise, I would be driving to Tennessee today. And, I am also extreme thankful for my dad paying for the ticket as a reward for getting a 4.0 this semester.

So, that was my day so far.
Thank you so much, mama and daddy, for helping me out through the craziness early this morning. Love you :).

Oh, and I am going to Chattanooga to see my bff Katie Stephens :). I'm excited. :)

Thank you medicine!

I would just like to take a moment to say that I am thankful for medicine.

After my blog post complaining about being sick the other night, things got much worse.

My head stayed in the toilet nearly all night, which was super awesome.

I felt like dying.

I went to the doctor yesterday morning, and I am SO glad I did.

I got an antibiotic shot and was hooked up to an i.v. to get fluids and nausea medication.

I was sent home with two antibiotics and a steroid.

Hallelujah. Hallelujah. Hallelujah.

My throat feels ten times better.

I am not coughing as much.

I can breathe out the right side of my nose.

My headache isn't as bad.

I actually slept all night!

I haven't thrown up in almost 24 hours!

THANK YOU MEDICINE!!!

Sick Complaints

I have been waiting on this day for weeks. I am DONE with the fall semester, and it's looking like all A's is good possibility...

But, I am NOT happy!

Why???

Because I am SICK.

Not sick, not feeling well sick. Sick that makes me want to die, sick.

I have bronchitis and strep throat. And, I'm 95% positive I also have a sinus infection.

I cannot breathe out of my nose at all and it hurts to breathe out of my mouth.

I cannot taste food and it hurts to swallow what I eat.

I feel extremely nauseated, I have only thrown up once though. Kind of wish I would again, just for momentary relief from my stomach being angry.

I feel like my brain is going to explode out of my ears/eyes/nose. (Yes, it hurts that bad).

I am more than exhausted but I cannot sleep because of my uncomfortable state.

My lungs are probably detaching (from whatever in the world is holding them in place) because of the amount of coughing I am doing.

I am burning up one second and freezing the next. 

I am shaky and very disoriented.

Thank you for listening to me whine.

And sorry if you found any of that disturbing.

On a brighter note:

My mom made me vegetable soup.

My roommate got me awesome bedtime slippers and Hershey's milk chocolate.

I am on an antibiotic.

Side note: My request to throw up was granted as soon as I finished the previous sentence.

I know, it's gross. Sorry.

Inside of my head.

Thoughts. 

60,000 thoughts per day.

2,500 thoughts per hour.

41 thoughts per minute.

A thought for nearly every second in a day.

I cannot express to you how much goes through my mind everyday.

Hopes. Fears. Dreams. Worries. Desires.

Past. Present. Future.

I overanalyze everything.

But, not as much as I used to.

To take a look inside might be overwhelming for the average person.

Sometimes my thoughts overwhelm me.

But, not as much as they used to.

I often bottle my thoughts up,

and watch as they explode uncontrollably all at once.

There are some thoughts that spill out all the time.

There are some thoughts that I have never spoken, and most likely never will.

Thoughts. Thoughts. Thoughts.

I actually started this post with the plan of spilling out a lot of thoughts,

and yet, I have simply just let the world know that they are in my head.

Maybe someday I will fearlessly write all of my thoughts down for the world to see.

But, not today.

Just a thought.

Thank God that God is in control.

I am freaking out! The end of this semester seems to have come out of nowhere, and I have to much to get done!

I just cannot let myself forget that God is in control.
I feel like saying that out loud helps me to remember. :)

God is looking out for me!
I can do ALL things through Christ who gives me strength!

These papers will NOT be the end of me.
Next week this time it will all be over!

God is in control. God is in control. God is in control.
And, thank God that He is in control, because I couldn't do it without Him!

Apology

My life is not my own...

I have been living it like it is lately.

And, for that, I am sincerely sorry.

This semester I developed a new attitude.

I began constantly thinking,

"what about what I want?"

...in every situation.

For some of you, this makes no sense at all.

Why should I apologize for putting myself first?

Because...

IT'S NOT ABOUT ME!

It just isn't. Life is so much bigger than me.

I have been called to live a life, serving God first, others second, and myself last.

I used to pride myself for doing so, 

and I am sorry that I haven't lately.

And, for those of you who think this is crazy...

From personal experience,

 I am much happier when I live my life for God and for others

than when I do for myself.

Now, to spare confusion...

This does not mean that I don't ever need to think about what I want.

It just means that I don't need to make myself center of the universe.

So, to my friends and family...

I am sorry for my selfishness.

I know that it is not something I can just turn off,

but I am working hard to fix my attitude.

Please pray for me to stay focused on God and the calling that He has for my life!

I love you all. <3

Michelle.

"We're the ones,

Gonna put it all in reverse,

Gonna die to ourselves,

Gonna live to serve,

Cause you get what you get when you walk by faith,

 Is it really so dumb to throw it all away?

They say it sounds insane,

We say that we've been changed,

By the power of...

CRAZY LOVE!

This world it looks at us, like we're ridiculous,

Baby, it's all because,

CRAZY LOVE!"